Emma’s mother used to say:
“God created teenagers, so that parents don’t suffer too much when their kids
go their own way, one day.”
This day has come.
This day is today.
And really, it did not
look like someone wasn’t suffering. Not
her mother.
It did not look like Emma
wasn’t suffering, either. There was a mix
between happiness and sadness in the air.
For Emma, it was the
happiness of having all you dreamed about and, at the same time, the sadness
about what you don’t have anymore. It
was about what do to with all that, with all you suddenly have, and with the
memories about what you had before.
For her mother, it was
like how mothers feel when kids go their own way. Some feelings you cannot explain.
Yes, both of them were
happy, and sad.
Emma had told her mother
since she was 14 that she would live alone when she would turn 18.
Emma did not make it with
18 years; she was almost 19 years old now.
It is not that she did not
love her parents, of course she did, it is more, how she described it: “Freedom?”
“The long awaited freedom. The
freedom you worked hard for, cleaning your bedroom sometimes, making your bed
when you are not too late for school, and on rare but real occasions, trying to
come back from a party when everyone else is arriving there, trying to not
drink too much and keeping the boys away from your parents’ home.”
On the way back from the
university Emma, who had her own house key since she was 13, realized she now had
HER own house key, for her own house.
Emma, coming back for the
first time to her new place, opened the door and said: “Where is my brother?” “Is dinner ready?” “Mom?”
“MOM? MOOOMM?”
Silence.
They had made the move on
the weekend. Last weekend. Actually, yesterday. Emma brought some of her old furniture to
this studio apartment and they bought some new things too. It was a really nice studio.
It took Emma 5 Minutes to
realize where she was. Even if this was
not the same house, she took 5 Minutes to realize where she was. Her memory was more the type of memory that is
attached to situations than a “photographic” one…to ask for her brother and for
dinner was something she did every day over the last years.
Emma took 10 Minutes more
to decide if she should go out and buy something eatable.
But, lets have a look in
the fridge at first. Just because.
The fridge should be
empty, because Emma didn’t even know where the next supermarket was. “It shall not be far”, she thought, “they are
everywhere”, but now, she felt helpless. “Let’s have a look in the fridge at first. Miracles happen, don’t they?” So close as the next supermarket may be, when
you are hungry, it seems to be too far away.